Chapter 19.. Find me

It was dark when I final stopped. I sat there on the edge of a cliff and I felt Anna walk up to me.

"They are looking for you." She spoke softly

"I don't give a damn." I lied. "Did you tell them where I was?"

"No but they will find you soon." She sat down near me. "Spock looked like he had been hit. Then when he could not find you on the ship he seemed almost upset. He called McCoy and Kirk. They traced your com back to the tent. There are many on this planet and it will take time to find you. Is this what you want? To scare those that love you."

I looked up at her with tear filled eyes.
"Does he love me? I told him who I truly was and he pulled away... he stiffened."

She breathed out hard. As an android she did not need to breathe, but did so not scare others.
"Allora don't you think your being a little hard on him?"

I glared at her.
"He is a Vulcan they never do anything they do not mean."

She brushed my hair off my face.
"No species is perfect and he has human in him that is not easy to have a mixing of two such different bloods in oneself. Your race is an old one and a rumored to be very powerful. This you know to be true." She looked at me waiting.

"I thought my species were guardians and their powers were only there to protect?"

She nodded.
"Yes but sadly due to the Tuniks, the race that hunted your race, some of that information about them became twisted to further their hunt. A rumor spread that they where a super race, but where cold and at times violent, using their powers to take out any who opposed them"

I shook my head not surprised. What other lies was out there spread by that hateful group of people, who hungered for power above all else.
"I need time to think. Are you going to go back to the Enterprise?"

"You know I can not. I am to protect you above all else, that is what I was created for."

I felt horrible, I knew that Anna was falling in love with Scotty and I was sure the feeling was returned.
"I am sorry."

She grinned, and touched my shoulder.
"Scotty will understand Allora, but I am not so sure Spock will the longer you are gone."

I stood.
"I'll be right back."

I focused on Kirk's energy and fazed out when I came back to I was in his office. He looked upset and I wondered if it something else or because of me.

Sensing he was no longer alone he turned in his chair.
"Allora?" He stood and walked to me "Where the hell have you been?"

I wrapped my arms around my waist so very cold. His face went even more worried at this action. It was a very vulnerable action not like me at all.
"Walking Captain, and searching. I need time off. I know your heading to another planet to drop off supplies and then back here for that report to see if the release of that chemical worked to stop that violent bug. Give me that time."

He did not look happy, he leaned on his desk and crossed his arms over his chest. A very male action, women could not do that. I continued to look at him unwavering.

"You and Spock fought?" I lifted the side of my mouth in a half smirk.

"He did not tell you Captain?" Kirk shook his head.

"You know Spock, he rarely ever speaks, but I could tell he was upset. He has been more withdrawn then normal. What is going on Allora?"

I took a deep breath.
"I told him who I am Captain, a Tegonan,"

I waited, Kirk laughed warmly.
"I already knew."

I gaped at him stunned.
"How? McCoy would not have betrayed me."

Kirk shook his head.
"Pike was still under the control of that creature when he was rambling, he did not mean to. He talked about your mother and then you. He was so worried about you. He told me the truth about you and your race. He did not mean to betray you Allora. I never mentioned this to him and I think he does not remember telling me."

I nodded and relaxed.
"He would never consciously betray me, I know this. Although, what I requested still holds true I need time off"

I could tell he did not like this, he looked at me directly in the eye.

"Are you running Allora?"
His voice was so soft.

"Are you scared of me Kirk?" He blinked at me stunned. "Many are afraid of my race Captain, so I ask again. Are you scared of me Captain."

He uncrossed his arms and walked slowly to me. He then took me by the shoulders and drew me into a hug. It was a caring hug.
"I have and always will trust you with my very life Allora."

I felt my self-tremble.
"Thank you Kirk, you are a good friend. I am honored to know you."
I stepped back.
"I will not leave this planet I promise. I'll be here when you get back. But he needs time to think just as I do."

Kirk nodded.
"Fine but I still do not like it."

I grinned at this stubborn man. I bowed to him and fazed out. I was back on the planet and Anna's dark eyes studied me. The wind blew her dark hair off her face and one would be fooled into thinking she was young. Her mind was very old. It held the wisdom of my people and their memories. I walked over to her and bag appeared next to her. I laughed at her actions.

"I am staying dear one, till you go back I will be here with you." Her voice was firm and I hugged her.

I sat down and looked off to the now dark sky. I slowly started to drift to sleep missing that blasted Vulcan.

I dreamed of him. I was lying on his bed watching him sleep he looked tired even asleep, he turned and I touched his face.

His eyes opened at my touch.
"I did not meant to hurt you. I reacted in a way that was illogical and for that I am sorry."

I drew in a deep breath. In this dream I was not afraid.
"I can not help who I am Spock. I would never hurt another. The rumors about my people are mostly lies."

His eyes traced my face.
"I know that, I only reacted stunned that your race still existed and that you were one."

I traced my fingers over his face.
"Sleep Spock you need it."

He fought the pull to go into a deeper sleep from my voice.
"You will come back." It was a statement not a question, typical Spock.

I laughed and leaned over. I gave him a soft kiss.
"Yes, now get the sleep you so very much need."

His eyes fluttered close and I drifted out of thought.

The first week all I did was talk to Anna. She told me all she knew about my species and what they where. The stories she told me amazed me. My people believed in a higher power, which had created them to protect the other life forms. Our powers were a gift to be used to guard and protect.

My species had the ability to bend thought and time but doing so was strictly foreboded unless there was no other choice. The consequences was too high. She told me about my father and his love of music. He loved to play something called a guitar and piano while singing. She showed me these things and I became slightly obsessed with learning both. I would sit on the edge of the cliff singing the songs of my people as the sun went down. But I was not at peace, despite all I had learned. I missed the ship and my friends. I above all else missed Spock. I dreamed of him but it was not the same.

The second week she taught me about my powers and how to use them. Most were basic and did not bother me. I adored the healing one the most, especial in the gift of a song. It felt good knowing I could help others, though it drained me a lot. There were a couple powers that frightened me and I learned about them but did not practice them. Mainly the bending time one and the one that could destroy in a massively way. I shivered at the thought of either. The greater the power the more it drained me. I had one weakness. I need contact. Many times we would walk to the village below and talk to the people. I would hold the babies and make them giggle. As a protection method against my people becoming detached from those we protected we were required to touch and interact, or we got violently sick and weak. The children offered such innocent love to me.

My time was up I could feel the Enterprise in orbit.

I took a deep breath and nodded to Anna.
"I know you miss him, go."
She hesitated.
"I'll be along shortly Anna I promise."

She nodded and left to find Scotty. I looked down at the little girl I was telling a story to.

I kissed her soft check and smiled.
"I'll miss you Angea, be a good girl for your mother."

She giggled and walked off.

I stood and brushed off my clothes. I walked to my camp and transferred all of it back to the Enterprise. I heard movement off to the side and turned. The main crew was there. I faced them, knowing I looked at mess. I was wearing an old faded shirt that was stretched to the point it hung off one shoulder. My jeans, an earth-clothing article that Kirk showed me, were dirty and torn in one knee. My hair was loose and out of regulations.

Uhura laughed.
"Hello wild woman."

I blushed and shrugged a shoulder.
"Who was I to empress?"

I still smoothed back my hair and looked at the cliff.

Kirk walked up to me.
"We need to go there is a planet out there with some very sick people. I am sorry to be so abrupt."

I smiled and nodded.
"Understood Captain." I looked at McCoy and grinned. "I learned a new trick, I am now a cool Doctor like you."

McCoy laughed.
"In your dreams, oh feisty one."

I blushed at the statement of dreams and my eyes flickers to Spock. His face was a stony mask I could not read and it hurt. I walked past him and the others to the shuttle. I sat and did not speak.

I saw McCoy glare at Spock and mutter something about him being a green cold blooded Vulcan. I looked off watching the stars fly by. The shuttle moved smoothly at Sulu's hands into the ship and I waited, once it was docked we all filed out and I moved swiftly to my room. I did not say anything hurt by Spock's withdrawal. I moved to the turbo lift and it moved to my deck. I got off and as I moved to my room. Spock's hand griped my arm in an almost painful grasp. I stiffened and try to pull away. He did not allow it and moved me to my room, the door opened and we walked in.

"Let me go." He looked at me not speaking. He pulled out a chair and guided me to it. "You're hurting me Spock."

He dropped his hand and his deep voice rang out.
"Was that you with me in my dreams?"

I stifled a gasp. I had thought they were just dreams, guess not.
"I guess so."

He raised that quizzical eyebrow of his.
"Stop being illogical."

I tiled my head up to him and said nothing. He finally sat facing me.
"I meant what I said about my reaction to your words even if it was in a dream."

I nodded and drummed my fingers on the table, to burn off the energy rolling off me. He watched and then final gripped my hand.
"Stop Allora."

I leaned back and took a calming breath.
"I am illogical Spock. I am not you."

His fingers almost caressed mine as he held onto my hand.
"I am not asking you to be like me Allora." His voice was calm and I watched his long fingers run over mine.

"Then what do you want Spock?" My voice was soft in the quiet room.

"For you to give us a chance. I am amazed on how logical and remote I can be to all but you. When you were gone it was like something was missing in me. No amount of mediation or logical thinking fixed it."

I felt tears fill my eyes and slip down my check. Spock's other hand came up and traced a tear. My eyes looked into his and I saw my self in them. He leaned over and placed his forehead on mine. I felt peace and that spot in me that was aching, stopped at this action. Our breath mingled and I relaxed.

"Oh Spock I have missed you."

I felt tension, I did not even know was in him, drain out of him at my words. He brought my hand to his lips and kissed it. It was a very human action that stunned me.

"I am quite human with you Allora, no one else. You won't tell will you?" He joked and I laughed in almost a stunned way.

"Your secret is safe with me, my Imzadi"

Spock's eyes opened and looked at me intensely.
"That is Betazoid? What does that mean?" He asked.

I smiled at him.
"I'll tell you another time."

We stayed there a long time. Not speaking just being there near each other, with our faces touching.